The Hardest Thing

The hardest thing I have to deal with is making a connection with someone on Facebook, taking the time to get to know them and comment on their posts and be involved in their lives only to suddenly and without notice be deleted. No explanation just removed. If you are going to do that then you should contact them, let them know why you are removing them and try to be respectful about it. Let them respond and see if it can or can't be worked out. If it can't be worked out then you respectfully say your goodbyes and move on.

Now instead of doing this, people remove you, get pissed when you contact them about it, and then act like you were nothing to them. Those actions make you are coward, in my eyes you emotionally disconnect from people and treat those who follow you like numbers and thats wrong. The sheep that follow these people, say they are nice, don't fool yourself. All you want is their dick in your ass. You just want to swoon on something you can never have and worship these men because of how attractive they are when instead you should be attracted to someone who will treat you with respect. Not like a number.

Goodbye Bears On The Coast, Hello the Future...

Bears On The Coast will be officially disappearing from streaming services like Youtube on November 12th, 2013. The decision was reached to differentiate the old material with the new material, sometime in the future it may all surface again but for now the videos go in to hibernation making way for new projects such as "The Real Whores Of Porkville" & "VOAGamerCub Let's Play Series".

Failure

I've been kinda depressed as of late, those thoughts of worthlessness have returned, my self loathing and anger towards others has also returned. Its strange, a lot of the feelings I use to have when I was in New York have returned. I just remember being so angry at everything and trying to understand why. I know i'm just feeling sorry for myself, feeling sorry for the failure of "relationship" with Joey, and feeling out of touch with everything. I feel trapped inside this house, no one to see outside these walls so I remain in this cage. People tell me to go out and meet others or to just take a walk and currently neither one feels appealing to me. I understand their good intentions, I just feel uncomfortable at places like that. Walking does help me but lately its just reminded me of walking in my own shoes, remembering walking down snow filled streets being homeless and feeling like I was free falling without anyone to catch me. The month i've been having has stripped me of the armor I usually have to protect me from these feelings but the streak of bad luck i've had this month just chipped away at it till I was left bare. I now feel everything pretty deep and i'm trying to make sense of thing. Trying to guide myself back to a sense of self, where I know what I want and who I am because at the moment I feel lost. Because i've been feeling a lot lately, i've been writing a lot of poems/lyrics and composing a lot of new music. I'm hoping this will help me to heal as music has always been a place of healing and therapy for me. Releasing the darkness from within myself.

Bears On The Coast Season 2.5 Begins

Today a new episode of Bears On The Coast was released, since we are raising money for Season 3 at the moment we are treating this as a bonus season. We are titling this Season 2.5 to signify the changes that will become more apparent with each new episode we show. Some of the changes introduced in this episode were the reduced length of the show from an hour long show to a 15 minute show, we have also started making tighter edits with less air time so we don't lose the audience. Since a lot of these episodes were filmed before we decided to make these changes, you will notice a slow progression towards the future format of the show. Here's a list of some of the changes we are making to our show:

• Shorter show (15 to 30 minutes in length)
• Tripod Setup (Filming with Tripods instead of holding the camera/less shaky footage)
• Tighter Edits (Less dead air & better effects)
• More variety (We don't want the show to be just a comedy so we will be leveling off the funny moments with the serious moments)

I hope that with these changes slowly becoming more realized and taking over completely as the show goes on that we can create a better quality show and move towards the future of the show which would be Season 3.