Past, Present, Future...

I wonder if I pushing myself to nothing. Am I working on something other people don't care about as much as I do, should I continue and should I quit now? I ask myself these questions a lot when it comes to my music. Considering I haven't put out an album yet I try to push these questions aside, but when I look at my Void Of Axis page on Facebook and see how small my fan base is and how little interaction I have with them I wonder how do I reach out to new people and whether or not they will even care about my music. I will admit, I am not what the radio plays today. But i'd rather be true to myself and what I feel is right, I choose to create the type of music I do because I generally like it and it sounds like something i'd like to listen to. I am hoping I am not the only person out there. I don't have an agent, I don't have a record label to fund me, and I really am trying my best to do everything. From working on music, to creating artwork, to finding live shows to play, to creating the best experience I can, but i'm not sure I can do it alone. I am just really confused as to what I should do next, I am working on trying to promote Forest Of Memories Vol. 1 which as i've been told is NOT an album I would get signed for. And I knew that when I created it, the album is not a commercial record, its a series of albums that just reflect the past. So far, the past has been a reoccurring theme in my life and I was to just release this and everything else that is in the "past" so I can move forward in to present and future.

I will reflect more later, have to get ready for Euchre today with the girls.

Forest Of Memories Vol. 1 New Cover, Void Of Axis Information, Bears On The Coast Episode 5...

Forest Of Memories Vol. 1 now have a new cover, I felt the original cover was too cluttered and not up to the best it could be. I've been working really hard on trying to get the promotion of the album ready. I am pretty sure that I will be selling my music officially on CDBaby, and also will be exploring the other possibilities given to me once that is set up such as being able to purchase albums and singles on Amazon, iTunes, Physical CD's, etc. I'm also hard at work on getting a music video done for "A Matter Of Time" and even setting up some live shows to help promote the record.

Bears On The Coast Episode 5 has been uploaded to Youtube. It is too long to upload to Facebook so its only available on Youtube for now. I will be working on Episode 6 soon which will consist of the remaining footage from our weekend to Orlando.

First Single is A Matter Of Time, Forest Of Memories Info, Bears On The Coast Episode 4 & 4.5

I am happy to announce that A Matter Of Time will be the first single from my forth coming album "Forest Of Memories Vol. 1". The single will contain the album mix of the track as well as the demo version of the track. The release date for the single is February 8th and Forest Of Memories will be released on March 21st. I'll soon announce where you can purchase both the album and the single. Also the artwork for both A Matter Of Time & Forest Of Memories have been finished and are featured above, I hope you like. I am in talks with a friend of mine who will be helping me create a music video for A Matter Of Time. The ideas so far are very good and I think it will show some how serious I am about my music. I am currently in the process of doing the inside art work for Forest Of Memories. Most of the theme to the booklet will be the theme of my past since the album is a somewhat biographical look on pieces of my life...

Bears On The Coast Episode 4 and 4.5 are now out both on Youtube and Facebook. I recently did a facelift on the Youtube page to reflect the new show so I hope everyone likes it.

The Year Of Change, The Void Opens Soon, Bears On The Coast Episodes 2-3...

2010 was an interesting year, it was the year that many changes occurred in within my life. May relationships destroyed through greed and hatred, but with those bridges burned by others many new ones were created. Many new friends have been made and more importantly, family members I look forward to making new memories with. This will definitely be the Year Of Change for me, from New York, to Michigan, to Florida. It really has been very interesting and now I am ready for a new chapter in my life and to see what happens here and now. In the past couple of days, I've been considering starting to write a sort of biography of my life up until this point. The problem is finding a place to start the story of course, it could start during high school, but I think it would be good to start the moment I was out on my own. I want to be brutally honest with this story and tell everything I can tell no matter how much it matter hurt. This is just to show how far I've come and now where I can go from here. I am very optimistic of my future here, and things are slowly coming together. I have an appointment to get my state id soon and then I can start looking for work, in the meantime I will be doing my best to get whatever I can together. As well as writing my biography probably in my spare time, I won't share the biography with anyone till I feel it is done which will be a long time from now. I honestly just say let me write what I can and someday when I feel its write it will appear.

This will be the year my music finally starts, I am in the final stages of my first full length LP since Purgatory this past October. I will be finalizing vocal work this month and copyrighting the material. The single for the record has been chosen and I will be working with someone on creating a music video for it as well as artwork for it. I will also be working on the rest of the artwork and getting the album released. I've had to pull the March release date as I don't believe it might make it to that date, but once the songs are legalized and finished I can say when I release date is. I am glad this is finally coming along and I look forward to having people listen to it.

Bears On The Coast Episodes 2 & 3 have been uploaded and are availble to watch now on my Youtube page. We also have a new page for Bears On The Coast on Facebook which I will link below:

http://www.youtube.com/user/CorneliusRose25#grid/user/35A1994D8F7FBAFB

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Bears-On-The-Coast/127375343991678

Hello Florida, Attack Of The Club Kids, Bears On The Coast Episode 1...

I'm in Florida now! And so far things have been really good, the move went well and i'm glad to be here. I'm working on getting my state id or driver's license. This will mean I have to get a book from the DMV so I can study to take the test to get my permit. In the meantime, I am still getting used to the area and i'm glad its got an actual town compared to my last place. Hopefully I will be able to get a job here. Michael has been showing me around and has been very sweet since I moved here.

Last night I went to a local gay club called "University Club". My friend Todd called me and asked me to go with him, and so I did. It was a very interesting experience, the bar/club is three levels. The first and second level being in one big room where everyone is dancing and the third being a bit more quiet offering a bar and pool tables. The club was very busy and packed, it seemed to be more of a hangout geared towards the "Twink/Club Kid" crowd. And as you probably know I felt a bit awkward there, but I did have some fun though. It was pretty clear to me that everyone in the club was either drunk as hell or they were on some kind of drug. Everyone was gone! So far gone that if they weren't clothed the entire club could have been a giant cesspool of sex and STD's. But then again i'm also a 23 year old who got over the "club" scene when I was 20 years old so I can't judge them, I can judge the 40 + year olds who are still there and not realizing their maturity. All in all, it was a good night.

Bears On The Coast has premiered and tomorrow i'm scheduled to make another episode with my friend Peter and his boyfriend Artie, and with my roommate Michael. I will be hanging with Peter and we will meet with Artie and Michael and all go to see Tron: Legacy tomorrow and possibly have some dinner afterwards. The first episode can be seen below this post.

Pack & Unpack/New Phone Recieved/Stryker In Florida...

So within the last couple of days i've been packing, all of my stuff is done and everything is packed. Unfortunately I had to repack my stuff because my suitcase was over 100 pounds and the weight limit is 50 pounds. Michael, my new roommate in Florida, helped me over the phone decide how much to bring and how much i'm leaving behind to later be sent to me through the post office. Tomorrow will be my last full day here in Michigan and its feels kinda sad. I am hoping my new life in Florida will work better and at least I tried my best to make things work here in Michigan. I met lots of awesome people and hope to keep in contact with them and possibly come back to visit sometime in the future. Tomorrow I will be cleaning my clothes i'll be wearing on the plane and i'll be making sure all my stuff is packed. I also have to make some CD's as Michael and me will be listening to some of my own music after we leave the airport.

I got my BlackBerry 8330 Curve today. Its a very awesome phone, i've uploaded all my info, set up my e-mail and such, and also imported some edited snibits of songs I like and made them in to ringtones. Right now my current ringtone is Pro-Test by Skinny Puppy, and I plan to make more hopefully soon. I also got the Canon Camera I used when I was living in New York. The camera is a pretty good and takes good pictures and video. I also got a nice pair of headphones and some rechargable batteries for the camera. Thank you Michael Livote for sending me these things in a time where right now things are hard. I really appreciate all he has done for me and glad he is a still an important part of my life.

A good friend of mine named CJ Stryker added me on Facebook (don't ask why we were friends before because we have no idea) but he is in Florida at the moment and we are planning to get together for lunch and possibly hangout. It should be very nice, Michael says if we don't get together on Thursday then he will drive us back in to Orlando over the weekend so we can get together. I am really looking forward to seeing him, at least I will have one familiar face in this very unfamiliar place i'm moving to.

Land Of Christ & The Homophobic...

I live in America, a place where you are free to express your opinion and be who you are. I didn't know that right meant only certain people who are "SAVED" by Jesus Christ, and believe "FAGS" like myself should "GET AIDS AND DIE." First of all, I believe Straight people have NO RIGHT to decide rights for me because they have no idea what its like and they will never know. Second, religion is the LAST thing you should use against us because you say you hear the word of "God" and in some circles we call that Schizophernia. I believe you are allowed to believe what you want to believe, and you should give me the same right to believe what I want to believe. But when it comes to trying to push those beliefs on someone else because you state its a FACT without the FACTS, then you are WRONG. We should all be tolerant as we are all human and all different. Third, I am HIV negative and plan to stay that way. Its a epidemic occuring for EVERYONE EVERYWHERE, Gay, Straight, Man or Woman. Instead of hating on me you should get a life and learn to not be a homophobic cunt. After seeing all this ridiculous fighting for the past couple of years and seeing people like Christine O'Donnell, Sarah Palin, and George W. Bush make judgments on things they will never understand makes me sick. They should mind their own fucking business and leave us alone. I may not be able to change them, but at least I can use the right to freedom of speech and express that we really need to stop fighting on such a silly thing. We have other things in the world going on right now that are much more serious than that. You may not want to know what we do in our bedrooms, but we also don't want to know what happens in yours. We should have the right to walk down the street with our lovers hands held together like everyone else. I really don't have much left to say so i'm gonna go relax now. And don't make me come back and say things that are not family oriented because I wouldn't want to ruin the minds of innocent children everywhere... Oh wait, I forgot about all those horrible parents out there who are doing that already and of course all those pedophiles that you pretend don't exist. Goodnight.