Hey everyone. Sorry I haven't been on in a while. I have been busy and sort of dealing with my own issues at the moment. I haven't been getting any sleep since Mike has started seeing his new boyfriend, Anton. Mike is never here so I am usually always alone. I have an issue with being my myself, I actually don't like being alone. I get very lonely and I get sad. I feel like no one wants to be around me and lately I have just been feeling a lot of mixed emotions about that. In the back of my mind, I know that a lot of what I feel is not true but sometimes those emotions are so strong and are just triggered by random things. Like take for instance, if I see two guys who are really cute together and look happy. I get sad because I wonder why I can't be that way. Over time I am sure it will get easier and once I get back on my medication I should be alright. I am very proud of myself for keeping the job I have now since I am not on medication now. But I hope to fix everything, get back on Medicade health insurance and get back on my medication. Then me and Mike can work on getting a new apartment together. A two bedroom apartment so he can have his space and I can have mine. I like living with Mike but I can't stand being next to him every second. And now that I am alone I just feel down. I know I will get over it eventually.
So far only two tracks from the original "Forest Of Memories" album are left to rework. Everything sounds great and i'm very excited about how the whole project has come along. I only have to do "Feed The Bears" & "Ignorance". I am also working on a few new tracks for the album so we will see how it turns out.
I went to see Nitzer Ebb with Paul this past Friday. It was fantastic. That was my first Nitzer Ebb concert and I even bought their new album "Industrial Complex". The album is a return to their roots but is also a departure as they try new methods of music which is nice. I think the diversity is good and the mixture of the new material with the older stuff is great. The highlight of the night for me would have to be when they played "Blood Money". I love that song, its just got an amazing beat and the lyrics are simple and awesome. I hope everyone goes to see them. It was just an awesome show. Anyways its like 6am over here. Can't sleep again. Gonna try to get some sleep. Goodnight everyone.
-Dustin-
