Goodbye New York, Hello Michigan...

Its been a while, and a lot has happened, I felt I should update everyone on the events that have happened within the last couple of months. Back in June 2010, I was told that I had two months to prepare to move because my ex-roommate wasn't allowed to have anyone living there but himself. So I worked on trying to find an apartment and a job, I found a job within a month but it wouldn't start till August. As time moved along, the date for when I was suppose to leave kept being moved up till eventually it was moved up to August 1st. Out of options and places to turn to, I tried to turn to everyone in New York I could turn to, but no one was willing to help or had the resources to help me. But two months prior to this, I had a brief conversation with a good friend of mine named Adam who lives in Michigan. He told me that if it ever happened that I would end up in a bad situation in New York I could come live with him. He believes that I could better in Michigan. So in a life changing choice, I decided that things would not get better and the only choice left for me in New York was to become homeless again and I wasn't going through that again. If I went back to that it would be like everything i've done in the past few years would have been for nothing. So I decided to start saving up money and move to Michigan. I set it in my mind that I need to leave New York and start somewhere else and leave the past in New York. Give myself a new start and a second chance. So within the month of July, I spent collecting money, selling things and just saying goodbye to everyone. During July, I can remember how it felt and I still find it sad that some people took my leaving New York as me "running away from my problems". In fact, to be honest, I left New York to go somewhere where people care about me more than to just let me drift around on the streets on Manhattan and just a goodluck and a bag of clothes. So I got enough money for the tickets, I ended up getting tickets to take Amtrak. The days before the move were the hardest, inside it felt so unreal like it was a dream or something but then the day came. August 2nd came and I was late on finishing my packing, I finally got it all done, and I will NEVER pack that much shit again. I had to lug this huge red suitcase up a stairwell in the Bronx and almost felt down the stairs getting it up. It was a nightmare. Getting to Penn Station with the luggage was a complete nightmare and I was late. But I eventually made it, after being sweaty and annoyed by falling over in Penn Station with my luggage. I left my luggage at the back of the car and sat down in the only seat left on the train but I was glad to just have made it there before the train left. Called a few people to let them know I was in route to my destination. During the trip on this train and hung out and tried to keep my mind off of crying from how emotional the experience was of just getting on the train and listened to some music and watched some videos on my MP3 player. The sky grew darker as we traveled farther north in New York. Everyone was asleep by the time we reached Buffalo, NY. I was awake most of the night, I fell asleep while listening to Coil's "Musick To Play In The Dark Vol.1". I woke up with the song Broccoli playing and was freaked out by Jhonn Balance's vocals in that song. But I did eventually sleep a little. We got to my first destination in Ohio where I switched from the train to a bus. This bus took us from Ohio through Detroit all the way to Ann Arbor where I would get the last train. Once in Ann Arbor, I called and talked to my friend Paul for a few minutes and then talked to another one of my friends Chris. Eventually the time came and the train came, I got on the train, this time having my own seat and was kinda of falling asleep from being awake all night but decided to stay awake. I'm glad I did, the view of the landscapes and farm land I saw on my way to Kalamazoo was fantastic. I even saw some Deer looking on to the tracks as we passed by. I got to my final destination, Kalamazoo, where it was nice and sunny. I sat outside waiting to finally meet Adam in person and he came, it was very nice. He took me that day to meet his friend Scott and we ran in to another friend I had been talking to a lot before I moved on Bear411 named Craig. We got along pretty well and they went shopping but eventually I got to the house and unpacked a bit and just relaxed and got used to my surroundings. In the days after that, I just got used to where I was now, and I needed it, I felt very numb and almost cold because I was not used to such a change. But I was overall happy with the decision and since then I have been working on trying to get a job, and other things such as learning how to drive and switching some of my benefits from New York to Michigan. But i've also been just easing in to my new life here and getting to know the people around me who are supporting me in my change and my new life here. I have no regrets about what i've done, and to be honest, since i've moved here, i've been happier here than i've ever been in New York. I actually feel like I belong here and I feel like i've found a place I can actually call my home. To me that is an accomplishment and a step forward. This past Sunday, I went with a couple of friends to Lake Michigan, it was pretty much myself, Adam, Craig, and Max. It was a great time and I can see us doing lots of fun things in the future together. I look forward to my future here and I can honestly say for once that I am happy.