Thoughts On Black Swan & Misconceptions

I just finished watching Black Swan. I have to say that film is pretty fantastic, all the way to the end you are left feeling out of place and distraught. By the end of the film it doesn't give you an answer of what exactly happened, but more of a fill in the blanks with what you think happened. I personally think that Natalie Portman's character was mentally ill, she was suffering from many delusions that got worse and worse to the point of her ultimately endangering herself. It actually is kind of sad when you think about it. As a person who suffers with mental illness, its sad to see a movie like this about a person who just wanted to be the best she could be and ultimately its her illness that kills her. After seeing the film I think its great but its left a somewhat weird taste in my mouth. Maybe something about the film hit to close to home for me but I still recommend people to go see it as its a great film and was beautifully well done.

Also I must point out that some people who can't comprehend the film because of the "girl humping the floor" scenes and "all she does is get down on herself so that makes this a bad film" is bullshit. Those people have the mental capacity to watching Michael Bay films about dirty language and explosions. That's about it. Black Swan is for people who are MATURE and understand what mental illness is. To judge it as a film about "a girl who masturbates a lot and get upset" is pure horse shit. If you have the mental capacity to handle that then by all means watch this movie, and if you don't, go watch 2012, because that film was all about nonsense and unnecessary action sequences that never end. I'm sure you'll be watching it with someone as scary and bitchy as this girl...

Growing Pains

How can you laugh when someone doesn't understands your humor but expects you to find their humor amusing? How can you feel good about yourself when everything that makes you who you are annoys someone but you are expected to be tolerant of everyone else? How is it possible to not feel less than someone else when what makes you who you are is being criticized?

I try everyday to respect everyone's differences, I know I won't be able to get along with everyone. I don't ask that you understand everything about me, what I do ask is to just be tolerant of who I am. The last thing I need to feel is like a small infant who needs guidance because he's immature and no like everyone else. I don't expect others to deal with my problems, so don't expect me to deal with yours. If you can't handle my baggage what makes you think I can handle yours? I may have a jaded sense of the world but in the end I believe a better tomorrow does exist and that things will eventually work out because if I didn't then why would I be making an effort to make a better future for myself? The last thing I want to do with this entry is to start drama because i'm just stating how i'm feeling inside. And to some people stating how I feel inside to them means I am overreacting. But in reality I am just reflecting, that is the whole point of this blog. A way to reflect on the past and see it for what it is, a point of growth. I am human, I make mistakes and I am always learning and always growing.

Bears On The Coast & Void Of Axis Nominated & Bears On The Coast Season 2 Trailers...

We have been nominated for two awards for the Bearlebrity Awards. The first being Bears On The Coast for Best Bear Videocast, and the second being Void Of Axis for Best Bear Audio/Podcast. If you would like to vote please visit this link below:

http://www.thebearlebrity.com/the-bearlebrity-awards/

Also we released our first in a series of trailers that will be released each month leading up to our new season of Bears On The Coast which is set to be released in August. Here is the trailer:

Everyone Has Issues, Snapple Party, The Starving Artist

Hey everyone. Sorry for the long pauses between posts. Things have just been very hard here lately. Not only in my life but in the life of others I know and love. I want to help those in need who are in my life but i've realized I can do that. I need to work on my own life first, and so far I have nothing yet going with that. Still no job yet but I am seriously putting in the effort for the weeks coming up. I've already put up my newly reworked resume, thanks to my boyfriend Adam, on CareerBuilder and Monster.com. So far though i've gotten nothing but Telemarketer positions which are just not good. I won't make any money doing that shit. I will be applying for a few places online and hopefully they will get back to me. I also want to stop by a few local shops and see if they are hiring anyone.

Other than the problems in my life and in my close friends lives, things are alright. I have been working on filming the second season of Bears On The Coast. In the meantime I have been working with Michael on our first live stream over the internet. We are having a "Snapple Party/Bears On The Coast Marathon" on May 7th. Its based on the idea we created on the first episode of Bears On The Coast. At this party we will be discussing episodes the fans have chosen for us to talk about and we will be drinking snapple and just having a good time. We have even got a special surprise for our fans which i'm sure will make them laugh. We will be having the Bears On The Coast Snapple Party live at May 7th at 3pm. The link to the page where it will be held live is located below:

http://www.ustream.tv/channel/bears-on-the-coast-live-snapple-party

I'm very worried about my first album. I've only managed to sell about 3 copies of the record, i've been doing my hardest to advertise but i'm not a record label. I am a person who doesn't have much skill in that area. I'm hoping my new roommate who will be joining me and Michael can help me advertise this record better. I've also been hoping to get some support from some of my family and friends. But it seems I haven't got such luck since the three people who bought the record notified me of their purchases which is okay. I know not everyone will enjoy my music but out of 334 friends only 3 people decide to support me? I guess this is the life of an artist, I will just have to try harder with my next releases. I don't do pop music, I just create whatever I feel like creating. This is also my first album so maybe its just not what people want to hear which is understandable. I am hoping I get more support before I move on to my next project under Void Of Axis.