Sunday, January 22, 2017
Its been 10 years since I started Void Of Axis, I didn't even realize it till a week ago. I can't believe I have been on this journey for that long, seems just like yesterday I found that old dusty Macbook Pro in my small Upper Westside Apartment that I had nothing to do in and so started to write music to pass the time. I never knew it would become something so important and would ultimately help me heal and keep me alive everyday. But it has, I looked back on all of the music I have created over the years, all telling a story, all showing me as a person evolving and growing and learning and taking a personal journey and sharing it with the world, opening my heart and wearing it on my sleeve. I decided yesterday why not release a collection of all the singles together on one package together and so I did that. It was fun to hear just how far I have come and see how my music and tone has evolved over the years, now I wonder if I will be doing this in another 10 years. I certainly hope I am still making music until my life ends, its how I see myself living. Its my job, my career to me and I've dedicated my life to it. I can't see it any other way and I hope more and more people will join me for this journey I am taking.
Check out The First Era 07>17, click here...
Saturday, January 7, 2017
Thursday, January 5, 2017
Been very tired today, not really sure whats going on with my body. I've been avoiding everyone on Facebook, just needing space and I don't think anyone understands where I am in my mind. I am not happy with how I look and unless I get surgery to fix the problem I am just having to live with it. Anyways I slept for most of the day but did manage to upload the new EP to Soundcloud for streaming. Been thinking about what I want to do with this EP and the new album once its finished in a few months. I have been throwing around music video concepts for almost all of the tracks on the EP which is something I don't usually do. But since "Remnants" the album this is all from is to be my most personal and dark record because of this dark and difficult period of my life I kind of want to showcase where I have been for the last 2 years and really try to get the feeling visualized. Right now "Mare" and "Never Meant For Me" stand out visually and I will probably work on videos for both in the coming weeks. I hope more people check out my new EP, so far no one has purchased it and its been out for over a week. I am going to give it some more time and hope maybe the videos will help. I will leave the streamable music down below, please listen and enjoy the new sound for Void Of Axis for the time being.
Tuesday, January 3, 2017
Monday, January 2, 2017
Since starting recovery I have been unable to discover who I really am. I've been keeping myself busy working on music and getting my feelings out through that, I release last Friday a new Extended Play (EP) of music, very different from what I did prior just showing how different my art has become but also how different of a person I have become. As usual I am struggling to get anyone to listen to it, it almost seems like no one wants to listen to my music period and I am unsure of what I can do to change this. It just hurts knowing something you've been struggling to do especially after a very hard time in your life and still no one seems to care. Maybe thats why I turned to drugs because of years of no one giving a shit I finally stopping giving a shit too. I don't want to go back to that though, I want to remain in the here and now and keep getting better. Also if people don't want to take my art seriously thats all on them, I need to do this for me more than I need validation of my own existence. I am alive, that should be validation enough.
New EP can be found here:
Sunday, October 23, 2016
I am a Meth Addict, I am ashamed to admit this though. I feel like I've let everyone down and I've even let myself down. I spent the evening wanting to cry and freak out but unable to because of heart palpitations. It feels like nothing I do to distract myself from facing the truth works, I still end up using the drug and its taking a toll on me. Its clear that I can't do this on my own, but I need to stop. If I don't end it I fear what will happen to me because of how shit my health has been of late. Its been very hard to write this and I've attempted to many times but I always stopped myself. I am in denial and I can't face reality and I need to. I need to accept it, if I ignore it the outcome will be fatal.
Thursday, June 16, 2016
I was wrong.
On June, 10th around 2AM a man named Omar Mateen who was disgusted to see two men who were in love with each other a few months earlier targeted a gay club in Orlando called Pulse where he went on a killing spree with a AR-15 assault rifle. He took 49 lives that night while countless others were left wounded both physically, emotionally and mentally. People who went out to enjoy themselves and get away from the troubles of life were mowed down because one bigot can't comprehend "LOVE" outside of his narrow minded view of the world and therefore decides to take action by ending so many lives of people who never did anything to him besides be themselves and love one another. That morning I woke to the news along with the rest of the world and my heart filled with sadness, I couldn't believe after all the years of fighting for our freedoms and slowly seeing this nation become more accepting of LGBT people that someone would or could do that to another human being. That sadness has now turned in to anger, a fierce fire that now drives me more than ever to extinguish people like Omar Mateen who harbor the fear and hate within their hearts towards something that doesn't hurt them. Two people who love each other and aren't hurting anyone else. Love no matter what form it takes between a man and a woman, two men or two women is beautiful and should be celebrated, not hated. Whether it be in the name of religion or sheer ignorance this behavior cannot be allowed to continue, I don't want to forget what has happened, I don't want to simply mourn and allow this to happen again, I want change now. I want our country to do something about this, we can't keep going on like this and pretending that mass shootings are a normal thing. People's live being ended like this will NEVER become a casual thing, I will NOT allow that to happen. In time I will comment more on this but for now I can't say much more than that.