I am a Meth Addict, I am ashamed to admit this though. I feel like I've let everyone down and I've even let myself down. I spent the evening wanting to cry and freak out but unable to because of heart palpitations. It feels like nothing I do to distract myself from facing the truth works, I still end up using the drug and its taking a toll on me. Its clear that I can't do this on my own, but I need to stop. If I don't end it I fear what will happen to me because of how shit my health has been of late. Its been very hard to write this and I've attempted to many times but I always stopped myself. I am in denial and I can't face reality and I need to. I need to accept it, if I ignore it the outcome will be fatal.
