Gamestop, Spring, and Feeling Our Weaknesses...

Hey everyone, so to start this blog entry off I will discuss my unfortunate visit to Gamestop this past weekend, a few weeks back I went to Gamestop and picked up Final Fantasy X for the PS2. Now i've played through half the game and i'm up to the part where you have to confront Sin (one of the two main villians of Final Fantasy X). Whenever it comes to this part, it shows Sin using Graviga on the party and suddenly Yuna is flipping out...and it doesn't stop. She just keeps going, and going and it never loads up the battle sequence. Because the game is defective, I brought it back to Gamestop with the hopes that they could replace my disc with a one that actually worked since at this point i've waited 16 dollars of my hard earned money. So I go inside, and stand on a line that leads out the door, and I see only parents on this line, they are all buying their kids games. Yet they don't question why and just pay whatever their children want. Anyways, I get up to the front, and tell them I bought the game about a week and a half ago, the game is defective half way thru the game. So the young blond female cashier asks me "Do you have a reciept?", i did not hold on to the reciept as I did not intend to return the game. So she says she needs a reciept and calls over the manager, she tells me they need a reciept even if they were to replace the game. So they look up in their computers and find an old transaction of me selling some games but not of me buying this particular game. Now the cashier that sold me Final Fantasy X shows up and I tell her this particular cashier sold me the game. She asks him, and he fails to recognize me... So in the end, I was told because I don't have the reciept that I can't get a replacement. So pretty much that was the last straw on crappy service from Gamestop, leaders of not giving you a choice so you can get ripped off by them. This leads me to an article in a forum that I came across after discussing how much of a Monopoly Gamestop really is. It really touches on some good points and at one point or another we have been ripped off by the "Trade-In" policy of Gamestop where you can trade in a 39.99 dollar game and get 7 dollars back. I have been there, at least at old stores such as Funcoland (which was bought out by Gamestop) you were able to get half the amount of the games price and possibly more if you brought the game back in mint condition. Whether you agree with me or not, you can't deny, Power To The Players, is not the correct slogan for this company. It should be "Power Taken From The Players"...

http://boardsus.playstation.com/t5/MVP-General-Discussion/Gamestop-A-quot-Monopoly-quot/m-p/36547827

As for other matters, today was a pretty good day, its been just beautiful outside and the trees started to bloom, I love Spring and enjoy the warmer weather. I was planning on working on some music today but after some complications with the DVD/CD drive on my Mac G4 it didn't happen. I will have to invest in a hard drive and a new CD/DVD Drive as well as some cooling fans to keep the computer's heat at a good level. Only problem with this computer is its ability to overheat very quickly. In the mean time, I will just relax, i've been thinking of just writing some lyrics and see what comes out of that. I have also been working and talking with Paul about our collaborative project, Dominion Alliance. We are working on some stuff and have released some pictures of us at work and playing with some sounds, these can all be found at my music Facebook page located at the link below.

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Dustin-Terry/119001855068?ref=ts

The last thing I wanted to touch on is that lately, i've just felt kinda out of touch with everything. Life feels like blur and all that surrounds me, I find myself getting defensive over minor jokes, angry towards so many minor things and I just try to relax. I feel so lonely, this doesn't mean just lonely as in love, but lonely as in just anyone who wants to be around me. I believe its my actions that have caused this and I don't think I can apologize for them. All I can say is, I am doing my best to control my emotions, I have been off of my medications for quite sometime now, i've managed to keep myself somewhat in control but lately, it's just become harder to do so. And a few weeks ago I signed up for Medicade Health Insurance, I need to see a doctor again, I need to talk to my Therapist, I just need to get back on route, I need to stop taking all my anger from my past and from the present and let them go and cleanse my body of all these bad things. I just want to be happy again. And after hearing so many lies about me from guys who don't even know me, and just feeling like I don't belong in anywhere I try to go, such as the Bear Community, the Gay Community, etc... I'm just tired of it, I don't want anymore drama, I just want to let go, have fun. For the time i've live in New York, it seems like everyone has an attitude, something to prove, almost as if everyone is afraid to show how they feel, any weaknesses they might expose. Yet, when I talk about my problems, or air my dirty laundry, suddenly I become the weak one, and become known as crazy, or a drama queen. For once in my life, I don't care how people label me, I am proud of who I am, I am proud of all the great things i've accomplished, and I am fine with all the faults I have. I may not have a lot of friends, but at least I am not afraid to show how I am really feeling. I don't hide behind false smiles just to stay inside of the crowd. And in that of itself makes me more real and honest then most people I know, its hard to believe people who can tell you how much they like you, and then next minute they are hoping you die or get some kind of disease. I may say things about others, but I say it out of my anger, and I never truly mean to anyone to be hurt or to die. I truly just want everyone to be happy and for me and everyone around me to get along. I guess what i'm trying to say is that I just want to feel normal, to feel like everyone else, and stop worrying about everything. Just have a day everything feels right, and everyone gets what they want, and at the end of the day, we are all feeling great, and feel closer as friends, as people, and not judge each other on our personal problems, our differences, our faults. Everyone is equal, I know some people will disagree with me because of the state of the world, and such. But does that mean its wrong? Is it really so bad to be equal to someone, no matter who they are? Would you truly turn down something for the better of everyone? And continue to spread lies, rumors, and simply forget about anyone elses feelings but your own, locked away inside that selfish cage, that prison you created yourself. Think about it...

Good New Job-Bad Old Job, New Music Updates, Atlantic City...

Hey everyone, glad to finally have time to update this, sorry for not being around. Been taking my time to focus on things i've needed to get done. So first off, I have been working at my new job, its a Law Firm literally across from my last job, American Express. This new place is great and I really enjoy the job. I can't complain, but what I will complain about is the fact that American Express STILL has yet to pay me. They owe me 96 dollars for three days of working, but have yet to give it to me. So i've in constant contact with Fountain House but they are doing very little to help the situation. So at this point after talking with my best friend Mike on this, I am thinking of getting legal action involved in this because its been a month and a half and thats illegal to hold my check for that long. So I will keep you posted on that sitution.

Tomorrow or today rather, I will be meeting with Paul, we have both been talking, we finished Obsidion Shroud musicially a few months back but we are currently not happy with the finished product and wanted to go back and add new songs and redo some songs from the original version, so we will be working on the beginning stages on that today. I am very excited and cannot wait to see what happens. As for my solo music project, the past few months i've been working on a fourth album which I have yet to give it a official title, but from what i've been coming out with, the music is probably my darkest project. Not that it will be completely devoid of light songs like my second album "The Endless Hole", but I just feel like doing what feels best right now, and this feels right.

And as for the rest, everything is going okay so far, I went with my parents to Atlantic City this past weekend, it was amazing, I had a great time. I enjoy just getting away and seeing the sites, its always great for me, i just enjoy seeing things outside of the normal. Just being somewhere other than here is always a vacation to me.