Laying in bed, the day before our big trip to Orlando for my 24th Birthday thinking. I guess its time for a reflection of the past year.
So this time last year I was sitting at a table of people who were considering or had already turned there back on me. In this bar in Kalamazoo, Michigan, I was pretending things were okay and hiding behind smiles, its was hard, living with someone you grew close to in two years time and then after almost a week of time together in person it was over and all that was left was a bitter taste that we both suffered with. How can someone who came off so sweet turn out to be so rude and harsh? I wonder if I did something wrong, but I can't worry about such things now. It was a rough period of my life, it was sort of the limbo of Dante's Inferno but it was a limbo of my own making. All because of my inexperience and a bad choice, but i've learned since then and id theirs anything i've learned its that life is a growing process and we are constantly learning from our experiences.
A breaking point was hit in Michigan, and I reached out to anyone that would listen, even if most of the people I was close with weren't there to listen. Somewhere in all of that cold emptiness I felt inside of me, part of me knew I needed to do something. Thats when I met my now current roommate and one of my closest and best friends, Michael Varvel. Meeting him and moving down here is one of the best decisions i've made, if I never made it, i'd be scared to think of where i'd be today.
Since moving down here, Michael has made it more than welcoming for me. I've met lots of people and friends and shared my creativity and personal life with people when me and he started Bears On The Coast. Its been quite a change, but a good one, i'm glad to be having a birthday this year with people who care about me and I care about them. My friends are like my family and keep me strong, I thank them all for sticking with me.
So this time last year I was sitting at a table of people who were considering or had already turned there back on me. In this bar in Kalamazoo, Michigan, I was pretending things were okay and hiding behind smiles, its was hard, living with someone you grew close to in two years time and then after almost a week of time together in person it was over and all that was left was a bitter taste that we both suffered with. How can someone who came off so sweet turn out to be so rude and harsh? I wonder if I did something wrong, but I can't worry about such things now. It was a rough period of my life, it was sort of the limbo of Dante's Inferno but it was a limbo of my own making. All because of my inexperience and a bad choice, but i've learned since then and id theirs anything i've learned its that life is a growing process and we are constantly learning from our experiences.
A breaking point was hit in Michigan, and I reached out to anyone that would listen, even if most of the people I was close with weren't there to listen. Somewhere in all of that cold emptiness I felt inside of me, part of me knew I needed to do something. Thats when I met my now current roommate and one of my closest and best friends, Michael Varvel. Meeting him and moving down here is one of the best decisions i've made, if I never made it, i'd be scared to think of where i'd be today.
Since moving down here, Michael has made it more than welcoming for me. I've met lots of people and friends and shared my creativity and personal life with people when me and he started Bears On The Coast. Its been quite a change, but a good one, i'm glad to be having a birthday this year with people who care about me and I care about them. My friends are like my family and keep me strong, I thank them all for sticking with me.
Awesome blog post. Very heartfelt and poignant. Best wishes for a very happy BEARthday and better days ahead.
ReplyDelete(((HUGS)))